Thursday, April 2, 2009

Cinnamon Rolls & Now



This morning at work, a local Park City business brought by some fresh cinnamon rolls for us to eat. Completely free, imagine that!
They were so delicious, not very sweet, but quite doughy, with the perfect hint of cinnamon.
They were so delicious, in fact, that I ran in to the conference room to see if there were more, which to my dismay there were none left. (food goes fast around here)
At that very moment I realized how badly I wanted that good taste to linger in my mouth again. I just wanted to experience it just once more, because even though I savored every bite and took my time eating the cinnamon roll, it was gone all too soon.
This very event brings me to the moral of the story, er this blog post. Everything in our lives happens moment by moment. And as fast as those moments come, they also go. All that we are ever left with is a memory, a changed or progressed thought, and feelings associated with certain things, people, and places and essentially and how those moments added up have changed and shaped who we are.
Yes, it can be sad in a way, because everything happens in such fleeting moments, and sometimes I just want to hold on to them and replay, replay, replay. But no, that's not how life works and maybe it is best so... so that we can move on and enjoy other things, in different ways, so nothing ever becomes stagnant. Everything is always in a constant state of flux and change. That is life.
I remember falling in love and having that amazing loving feeling overwhelm my body and every thought. As I laid in my lover's arms, cuddled up as he kissed my cheek, I remember wishing that moment would never end because everything was in perfect harmony, perfect bliss.
How I wish I could hold on to the moments of having lunch with my amazing grandparents in our old house. I knew the day would come when they wouldn't be around anymore, so every time I would visit them I would breathe in the smells of the kitchen and ingrain them into my mind, feel the texture and fabric of the sofa, remember it. Deeply root every word of our conversations into my mind and heart. Memorize the every feature in their faces... And that's all I have now because those moments came and went, they are gone forever, except for those memories.
So grasping and accepting the fact that things will change, people will change and memories will keep adding on over the years is a very important thing to be able to do, in my opinion.
These shouldn't be a depressing thoughts. Quite the contrary, actually. Because that's how we as people live and grow. Our whole lives are based on what we have learned and what we have experienced. It is a wonderful thing to be able to accept things the way they are, because everything happens for a reason... it's a beautiful thing to be able to live moment for moment, taking in all the little details of life, and yet be optimistic and excited about what the future will bring.
All in all, I have learned that we must always remember our past, plan for the future, but ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS live for NOW and enjoy the NOW, because that's the only time we will ever be able to experience it.

All this from cinnamon rolls?!?!

Friday, February 6, 2009

i love this








She is amazing. Another big burst of inspiration for me.
[all art by] hannah stouffer. www.grandarray.com

Wednesday, January 28, 2009















More than anything I wish to visit these places. And I will. So far, almost every country I have wanted to visit, I have.
Traveling is one of my top priorities in life. I love to indulge in foreign culture and beliefs, taste exotic foods, listen to the languages and experience what the beautiful environment has to offer, and admire the many wonderful living creations ... plants, flowers, and animals. And I love capturing the essence and moments of these places with my camera.
I know that I have become a much more knowledgeable, appreciative and understanding person through my travels so far in life and I am eager to keep growing through my travels ahead.
I want to not only see other historic, lavish, leading nations, but also experience and be humbled by the poor countries, the ones where even though the people have hardly anything they are some of the happiest, friendliest people in the world. I want to live like them and be inspired by them.

[In no particular order] on my list, to be completed within the next 5-10 years are:
South Africa/Africa.
Bali/Indonesia
India
Tahiti, specifically Bora Bora
Japan
Greece
New Zealand
Australia
Brazil
Peru
Malta
Israel
Morocco

Monday, January 26, 2009

Part 2



I once heard this:
risk and security are on the opposite ends of the spectrum.
The words I want to speak may just be my biggest risk.
I may lose all... or gain all. ALL.
I'm waiting for the time to be right, though it may never come.
Isn't that what risk is all about?
Tick-tock tick-tock. Months pass by.
Temporarily, my thoughts are clouded by unrecognizable emotions.
I can't seem to get these words out, tongue tied with a warring heart.
I can't create a masterpiece from this fragmented composition
Check mate: I am thoughtfully waiting to make my next move.
I must be cautious, I must remain rational.
Opposition.

So friend, let's run away together, let's chase those dreams
Let's get our hands dirty and live a little
Maybe it'd be better than we ever thought
Are you in?

Friday, January 23, 2009



These things, I should not be feeling.
These things, I should not be wanting.
Or should I?
I imagine this [possible] bliss, that could never be attained,
only because of circumstance and situation.
I can feel the energy of the desire, the forbidden, the unknown,
a harmonious future.
Thoughts blurred together into nothingness and confusion.
I cannot deny.
So when it's time to close my eyes each night, it's my only chance,
even if just for a little while, to "live" in that world.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

California

So I know this is a little bit outdated, but I wanted to post some photos of our trip to California. We left in 2008 and came back in 2009 :) Tommy and I drove to San Diego and stayed for 5 days with his brother Gunnar. As always, it was a blast. We enjoyed being away from the Utah cold as we were sun-kissed by 70 degree weather.
Our trip consisted of lots of food, drinks, Ocean Beach, antique shops, picking grapefruits & oranges, shopping, taking awesome photos, cooking, riding the trolley & going downtown, walking along the beach, rung in the new year and best of all - spending quality time with some of the best people I know.


















Tuesday, January 13, 2009

17-40mm



Ahhh, it arrived yesterday. My new Canon 17-40mm (wide angle) lens I purchased from ebay. I briefly tested it out last night, but cannot wait to go out and shoot some amazing photos. I already have some great ideas I'd like to try out.
Next on the list & will be mine soon enough: 70-200mm.